Funny, i dont know why i suddenly start blogging frequently again. Anyway, i finished rewatching MARS(Vic Zhou and Da S). I think they got lots of chemistry haha . The plot is rather good i would say and different from regular dramas. Da S acts a Qi Luo and Vic acts as Ling. Qi Luo was raped by her step-father when she was younger and hated boys from then on. Ling on the other hand watched his brother commit suicide and turned metal and started fighting and being violent. I guess its watching them slowly leave behind their past and walk towards the light together that is interesting. I guess thats what makes a good drama- conflict. Oh gosh. My eyes are bleeding from overwatching i need'a sleep now . its 3.08 pm and i have tuition later. You know i really dislike that teacher cos' he keeps asking about stuff totally irrelevant to the subject. I want to tell him MYOB but .. well.. i cant really do that right ?

Cage

Well, went out with Aloycia today to Bugis to get my shoes. it was rather productive and i got a Charles and Keith shoes which burnt a hole in my pocket. It cost me 80 bucks but i think it really fits me. Anyway thanks Aloy for helping me pick out the shoe, i was totally clueless about buying this type of heels, its my first time. After that we went to take neoprints. Omg i really miss taking neoprints. I remember being addicted to it in Secondary 2 when i got my first official neoprint. Anyway we spent our time just walking around and i saw a necklace that i REALLY REALLY wanted . There was only 1 piece and it was REALLY expensive $52.00 for that necklace. It was a bird cage and there was a little sparrow inside , the whole necklace was bronze in colour. It was what i really wanted and i knew i would like it alot. I usually do not wear accessories i only wear an accessory that represents me . I dont really care if it is nice or ugly or weird. What matters most is the meaning behind it .

I bought a $5 necklace from Bugis Street and though its looks cheapskate and worthless but to me it means alot. Attached to the necklace is a small wooden guitar a little ancient looking and rustic but beautiful. Although i would say that i am not very good at guitar playing, i really enjoy playing the guitar and music in a way is an escape route for me whenever i'm at a loss. It has, in a way, brought me out of the darkness that i had been in before and i hope it will continue to guide me along, wherever i go. Wearing that necklace is like salvation is always there beside me and when there is nobody to turn to, i always have my guitar.

That necklace, the bird in the cage also holds a very special meaning for me. Its a little like trying to break free from your past but always held prisoner by it. Oh well enough of the EMO-NESS.

I've always wanted to hold a party for my 16th birthday but with the approaching O's i don't really think i can . Well i've got so many dramas that i want to buy ,
1) Devil Beside You
2) Why Why Love
3) Atanshinchi no Danshi
4) Boys before flowers (Lol, dont -_- me . I'm only into this because of KIM BUM)

Oh by the way , i think i know why KIM BUM and MIKE HE facinates me so much. Its more the way their personality shines. Their looks too XD.

Kim Bum is sorta like a shining star , his has a contagious smile. In BOF, his character also puts on a charming smile no matter how down he feels inside . Seeing a smile is always a good thing.

Mike He on the other hand is probably someone who cares alot (this is assume through his character Ah Meng in DBY and Huo Da in WWL) I guess he is someone who puts others before himself. Then again , maybe its his voice haha.

OK. I officially conclude that i am CRAZY. Usually i would never blog about such personal stuff and say it so openly just like that. There is something officially wrong with me. Perhaps these few days have been really tough and probably i am just looking for salvation that music cant provide me with , human communication haha.

NIKKI

Chords C G AM Em F C G
repeated throughout .

I spend the last 16 years fussin’ away

Finding means and ways to fit in …

Those models strutting their stuff on the run ways

Kept me locked up in all day …

Same for verse 2

Its time to start a new chapter again
No regret no shame no figuring …
Bright angels shall shine upon me
Do you see a new paved up way ……

So just look in the mirror and

See my face

Crooked in all kinds of dirty ways

Just pray once more hoping to wake up
Today…….

(same as the top )

Just fly away
Lock in that window
Just say again
Just say my name
Cos I know
I’m the only one
in the world ..


this is written by
NICOLE KRISTEN
XXX me .. haha
Though i think its not really good but its my first try, be nice . Anyway i don't think many people will get this song and im not too adventurous to attempt it in a vid cos my singing is bad lOl. . i shall not scare you people away > Meeting Aloycia tmr to get shoes i seriously have only 1 pair of going-out shoes . so sad right ? haha...


OH BTW ,

KIM BUM's SMILE IS AWESOME !!!! I wish i could see a smile like that everyday , it will definately brighten up my day .XD
http://i823.photobucket.com/albums/zz153/sweety_918z/kimbum.jpg

I havent blogged for ages i guess. Well tmr marks the start of the Prelims and i'm quite nervous ... Well, oh . I watched Kang Xi Lai Le today and watch one episode where they talk about weight in the entertainment industry. It was hilarious and retarded how everyone thought that those actress were naturally sticks, in fact just listening to the methods they use to keep themselves that way is retarded. I think its foolish to think that everyone looks like a supermodel when they actually starve themselves. And frankly speaking I was rather shocked when i heard what one of the actress whom i thought was naturally thin actually went through so much to sustain that petite body of hers . It was really ridiculous and really made me open my eyes to how the world really is . full of lies . . .. .. . Anyway, Kang Xi Lai Le is hilarious esp when the WWL cast went on it XD.

Well, decided to post a pic of my super unglam moments, and you know what? I dont care if i look like poodle and some aunty on the road. I love my guitar .... Oh, i wrote a song too XD

Anyway, i also felt that normal people like me arent made to look nice and be a supermodel haha

RSH-

Its been awfully long since i last blogged. Well, with the hectic schedule up, i really lack the time- JUST KIDDING, just too lazy. Things are bad, i am constipating really badly, just like lost the rhythm or something. so weird. Anyway , I thought the Racial Harmony day was one of the best day that i had in school in the year so far. It was really refreshing though the denim cheongsam-like dress that i wore wrapped me till i was pretty much grossed out. I swear never to wear such things unless its a must. Wanted to wear a Waloli initially but in the end , well i just made do with my mum's one . The irony lies that it is from italy and its a cheongsam dress. Ironic no? Anyway have been playing you're not sorry from taylor swift recently on guitar. I think i am so addicted to Crazier. Haha, chinese oral just finished today thank god, i think its alright though some answers are a little on the confusing side, well, thats the life right?

Should i go to New York this year or the City of Angels (LA) again? My dad is asking me to make a decision . sigh.

Love Story

I'm tired of waiting ,
wondering if you were ever coming around ,
my faith in you was fading....
when i met you on the outskirts of town,
and i said ......

She, is my idol . Her name is Taylor Allison Swift. I finally managed to succeed playing love story on the guitar with my own tempo, with a speed that i am comfortable and can catch the beat. The sense of achievement is so fulfilling its describable. Though as i type now, my fingers hurt really really bad, i am happy. Sadistic ? nope. I finally succeeded. To many "pro" players this is like nothing . But to a noob like me, this is my first successful song and it is a song sung by my idol, Taylor Swift. This was the song that almost everyone knew, that everyone recognised, that everyone sang along to . LOVE STORY .


*THIS IS MY LOVE STORY * , JOKING >>> HAHAH

Lala land

*Life's tough, obviously not a cookie.*

I really want to thank R.P. ,

Hey R.P,
I dont know if you'll read this but i just want to thank you for all the support you've given me. I really appreciate it . When i literally just broke down i guess you gave me great advice.
I owe you one .

I always thought that i was a strong person inside out, but sometimes i feel that that is just a one-sided thought. I thought i dealt with my condition with the best possible mentality but maybe, just maybe, i was wrong. Why must Singapore make it so hard for students , the world is so concentrated with work that everyone forgets that kids need to have fun. Being born in this century is not about enjoying life, appreciating what you have, its more about working towards your future. Think about it . Everything is planned before hand, your life, your wealth, your success. It all starts from little steps like now where you're being forced to work very hard to uphold your standard, to not be looked down by fellow Singaporeans. To show, that you are the creme of the crop, the ELITE.

Then to think again that what happens after you attain success? You spend practically since you learned your ABC trying to create your "successful future" where did all the fun go ? Then you just die in your bed, with all the medical life sources poked into you skin, trying to keep you alive. You wonder what you missed in life? What that empty feeling is. Well, its FUN.

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On the other hand, there is IMAGE.. how you look, how you dress, how pretty you are, how thin you are, those are the only things that strikes another person about you. So what if you are kind hearted, sweet, jovial? If you dont look like a walking celebrity, nobody gives a crap about you. That is the cruel fact about life. You may hold a graduate's degree from one of the most prestigious universities in the world but get turned down for your lack of looks .

Fairness? Unprejudiced? Bullshit.

A quote from Leverage " ...... in a dishonest world...."

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